Someday

Someday. Seems like such an ordinary word, but it isn't really. I would be willing to bet that most of us are subconsciously addicted to that word as we are constantly grasping for that next phase of life that will surely be easier than the one we are currently living. For me as a stay at home Mom, I at least think this word one hundred times a day. Someday I won't have kids in diapers. Someday we will be past screaming and throwing fits. Someday I will take that photography class, be able to focus my energy on more creative things. Someday I will be able to go to the grocery store without at least one child on my hip. Someday I will be finished with diapers and wiping other people's backsides.  Someday I will be able to volunteer more. Someday I will be able to go on a walk without pushing a stroller. Someday I will get to all those house projects that have been gnawing away at my sanity. Someday I will have time to do something for me. Just because I want to. Someday I will be able to cook dinner without tripping over crying, hungry children as my pot is burning on the stove.  Someday. Someday the possibilities are endless. A word that has so many meanings.

Don't get me wrong, I am not wishing away this stage of chaos when the days are looooooong but the years are short.  It's just that it's quite impossible to keep from daydreaming about my someday.  And it will come....all too soon, I am certain.  So I am choosing to focus on now.  Because for now, I have this.....

 These children. Precious and innocent children. Barefoot in the rain.

 Last night we went outside to watch a storm come in.  It ended up just raining and so we let the boys play in the rain. And it dawned on me that nothing encompasses the perfection of childhood more than playing in the rain.  A seemingly simple act, but oh so significant.  It's the epitome of being a child.  It's what it's all about....

 So innocent, sweet, and pure.  Just soaking up life.

 Not a care in the world. 

 Laughing and having fun.

 Building bonds with their siblings that will last forever.

I am privileged to spend my every day loving and taking care of these precious little beings. It's the little moments like yesterday when William announced that he wanted to spend some of his allowance money to buy a toy for each of his brothers.  (Which we took him to do).  My heart grew about 100 times.  Or how Charlie is starting to voluntarily tell me he loves me....and proceeds to tell me how much by stretching out his arms.  Or when Shep runs as fast as his fat little feet can carry him to run into my arms.  It's moments like these that I am living for and that make all the spills and fits and everything in between more than worth it.  I am blessed beyond words.  So for now, my someday can wait.